One of my favorite movies from the 80s' is "Parenthood" starring Steve Martin and Mary Steenburgen as Gil and Karen Buckman, the parents of three children who are dealing with the pressure of daily life and then suddenly realize that baby number four is on the way. In one particular scene, Gil and Karen are discussing the children and how the new baby will affect their already hectic lives when Grandma walks in the room. Grandma then relates a story from her childhood days when she went to an amusement park. She tells how everyone wanted to ride the merry-go-round, but "it just goes around." Grandma then relates that she liked the roller coaster best because it went up and then down..up..down..up..down. Some people thought the roller coaster was scary, but Grandma found it exciting.
Today, I know what Grandma meant. I am on that roller coaster in some ways. Our tickets are booked, and we are still leaving for Bulgaria in a few weeks, which makes Rob and I very excited (think top of highest peak on the roller coaster). But, today we found out that we will not be able to get our grant money until our second trip to Bulgaria, which will probably take place in the spring of next year (think still at the peak but looking down).
What does all this mean? Basically, that we are still going to be short between $6,000 and $7,000 on the fee side, which will be due upon acceptance of our referral. However, I am not worried. I do not know at the moment how the money will come, but I do know that it will. God has provided for our family all through this journey, and I know that he will continue to do so. So what are we going to do in the mean time? Keep getting excited about seeing our little boy, keep praying and definitely enjoying the ride!